Mood:Out of Sorts
Topic:today
S.o.C."Porcelain" From Boogiepop Phantom
Today Lisette, Dan, and I all went bowling again(the only thing to do in this town I swear) and it was kind of a trial. Not that I didn’t have fun it was just…I’d only slept the whole of 4 hours and plus I was battling some nausea ( but I don’t know what the hell I was going to throw up because I haven’t been eating much lately) But I wasn’t much into the actual game I was just enjoying the company. It was good…I’ve been in this confused fowl mood lately and it was nice to have the positive energy to feed off of.
The gang was making fun of me because I had thrown 5 gutter balls in a row so to show that I could play when I was focused I got two strikes back to back since it was the final frame. We played three games goofing around mostly doing just the craziest things like trying to match one anothers shots or only trying to hit the pins in the corner it was fun.
Dan had a stain (looked like make-up) on his white shirt and Lisette and I joked around that he had found another girl to hang out with(I’m his only female friend) and that he was probably sneaking around behind my back doing promiscuous things. I pretended to be jealous and we made a fine scene of ‘what woman have you been rubbing up on?’ and‘but I swear there is no other woman’
At some point Lisette started cracking jokes because we noticed that since the part where you throw the ball is raised like 3 or 4 inches above where you sit that you are basically level with the person who is bowling bum. Eventually it ran to her and I comparing hips and such and then to put Dan on the stop as a quick joke which we’d been doing the whole time I asked him what he thought of my build. Lisette put it more precisely though saying in a daytime talk show host voice “Yes Bob what do you think of Kim’s Butt and hips?” I thought that was the end of the joke you know but he actually answered. The comment was…bold and I suppose flattering to some extent but…it kinda made me uncomfortable that my friend (because that’s all Dan is (contrary to popular belief) my friend. because I’m not comfortable with thinking beyond that realm…but I know he has) to take such notice in my physical appearance. Then Lisette brought up this one time in the hall way when she publicized my breast size asking if that was considered small. Dan laughed.
I was kinda stormy at that point…not exactly angry really just…a little uncomfortable…you know in a quick joke you can make fun of anything I won’t care. Like Lisette joking about my hips or when we were joking on Dan’s height or how we could see though his white shirt to see his boxers just stuff like that quick and then you let it go. But putting the focus on the way I’m built is something that I kinda get edgy on. Plus I didn’t like Dan falling into that realm of thinking. I don’t want something messing up whatever it is that we have.
I really don’t feel like explaining what it is that Dan and I have but since I’m here I might as well try…but I think I have before I don’t know I’m confused with him now…shit…I’d better call him tomorrow and straighten out any misunderstandings…I wasn’t made with him or Lisette…but I might have come off that way.
Topic:today
S.o.C."Porcelain" From Boogiepop Phantom
Today Lisette, Dan, and I all went bowling again(the only thing to do in this town I swear) and it was kind of a trial. Not that I didn’t have fun it was just…I’d only slept the whole of 4 hours and plus I was battling some nausea ( but I don’t know what the hell I was going to throw up because I haven’t been eating much lately) But I wasn’t much into the actual game I was just enjoying the company. It was good…I’ve been in this confused fowl mood lately and it was nice to have the positive energy to feed off of.
The gang was making fun of me because I had thrown 5 gutter balls in a row so to show that I could play when I was focused I got two strikes back to back since it was the final frame. We played three games goofing around mostly doing just the craziest things like trying to match one anothers shots or only trying to hit the pins in the corner it was fun.
Dan had a stain (looked like make-up) on his white shirt and Lisette and I joked around that he had found another girl to hang out with(I’m his only female friend) and that he was probably sneaking around behind my back doing promiscuous things. I pretended to be jealous and we made a fine scene of ‘what woman have you been rubbing up on?’ and‘but I swear there is no other woman’
At some point Lisette started cracking jokes because we noticed that since the part where you throw the ball is raised like 3 or 4 inches above where you sit that you are basically level with the person who is bowling bum. Eventually it ran to her and I comparing hips and such and then to put Dan on the stop as a quick joke which we’d been doing the whole time I asked him what he thought of my build. Lisette put it more precisely though saying in a daytime talk show host voice “Yes Bob what do you think of Kim’s Butt and hips?” I thought that was the end of the joke you know but he actually answered. The comment was…bold and I suppose flattering to some extent but…it kinda made me uncomfortable that my friend (because that’s all Dan is (contrary to popular belief) my friend. because I’m not comfortable with thinking beyond that realm…but I know he has) to take such notice in my physical appearance. Then Lisette brought up this one time in the hall way when she publicized my breast size asking if that was considered small. Dan laughed.
I was kinda stormy at that point…not exactly angry really just…a little uncomfortable…you know in a quick joke you can make fun of anything I won’t care. Like Lisette joking about my hips or when we were joking on Dan’s height or how we could see though his white shirt to see his boxers just stuff like that quick and then you let it go. But putting the focus on the way I’m built is something that I kinda get edgy on. Plus I didn’t like Dan falling into that realm of thinking. I don’t want something messing up whatever it is that we have.
I really don’t feel like explaining what it is that Dan and I have but since I’m here I might as well try…but I think I have before I don’t know I’m confused with him now…shit…I’d better call him tomorrow and straighten out any misunderstandings…I wasn’t made with him or Lisette…but I might have come off that way.
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